https://mostcrucial.bigcartel.com Independent label for bands, poets and creative people of all sorts. Specializing in limited edition cassette releases, poetry chapbooks, digest magazines and out of the norm merchandise. 116613435 My Mental State Has a Midwest Shape PDF File (w/ covers) 76 pages of poetry from Most Crucial Media. Please see description on the physical book listing for more information. Don't want to pay $15 plus shipping to read a book once? Let me hit your inbox with all the goodness at a fraction of the price. ( Bookstagrammers, Poetry sites w/ review columns, Podcast hosts, or any other type of media or periodical who wants to review or highlight the book please email me for a complimentary copy talldarkandrandompodcast@gmail.com ) This is a PDF file w/ cover attached that will be delivered to your email inbox. Please provide email in notes or it will be sent to the email address provided in your sales information. 5.00 USD https://mostcrucial.bigcartel.com/product/my-mental-state-has-a-midwest-shape-pdf-file-w-covers https://assets.bigcartel.com/product_images/415171992/A+New+Design+-+Made+with+PosterMyWall+-+2025-12-04T131052.271.jpg 116613435 new in stock 116612808 "Estranged Things" PDF Chapbook File (w/ Cover) Released in October of 2025 via Crying Heart Press; "Estranged Things" is 26 pages of poetry written while estranged from multiple loved ones. Estrangement brings about so many feelings from sadness and anger to inner peace and hopeful light, but either way, its a roller coaster of emotions all of us have at one time navigated. This collection is a tribute to the what was and what can never be the same. Now out of print, "Estranged Things" was one of the hottest selling Crying Heart chapbooks of 2025 touting multiple sellouts and praise from readers all over. While hard copies are currently unavailable you can still support this work and DIY independent artists with a small tithe and receive it to read in your email!!!! ( Bookstagrammers, Poetry sites w/ review columns, Podcast hosts, or any other type of media or periodical who wants to review or highlight the book please email me for a complimentary copy talldarkandrandompodcast@gmail.com ) This is a PDF file w/ cover attached that will be delivered to your email inbox. Please provide email in notes or it will be sent to the email address provided in your sales information. 3.00 USD https://mostcrucial.bigcartel.com/product/estranged-things-pdf-chapbook-file-w-cover https://assets.bigcartel.com/product_images/415167321/A+New+Design+-+Made+with+PosterMyWall+-+2025-12-04T123648.155.jpg 116612808 new in stock 116346504 Badguywrestler Records Compilation Original 2006 Repress of the lone Badguywrestler Records compilation. Limited to 150 copies. Compilation features many acts who came through the Southwest Kansas music scene via Badguywrestler Records including Arcasia (went on to become Honor Bright), Defining Moment (went on to become Mayday Parade), Brand New Disaster (Tribunal Records), Sloppy Meateaters (Orange Peal Records) and many more. This was repressed due to the constant messages asking if I had anymore copies. The answer is YES! For a limited time! Half of the run has already been sold prior to being put online!!!! Tracklisting: 1) O'Phil - "Six Pack Annie" 2) Sloppy Meateaters - "So it Goes" (demo version) 3) Tony Danza Tapdance Extravaganza - "5 Deep on Charlie" 4) 9Miles2Go - "Bitter Endings" 5) Arcasia - "Cold Daydream Receiver" 6) Perfection is a Myth - "Bathed in Cyanide" 7) Emma's Mine - "Sunday Morning" 8) Stuck in Neutral - "When the Oil Dried Up, So Did This Town.... 9) The Cast Pattern - "Bobby Brown Said it Best" 10) Lojic - "Father Time" 11) Defining Moment - "When Violence Fails" 12) The Park Bench Rant - "Osceola" 13) Eyes Averted - "Falling Action" 14) The Havok on Polaris - "My Special Thing" 15) Outside the Circle - "Waiting for the Breakdown" 16) Brand New Disaster - "Waking Wounded" 17) Adara - "Speechless" 10.00 USD https://mostcrucial.bigcartel.com/product/badguywrestler-records-compilation https://assets.bigcartel.com/product_images/414268884/BGW+Comp+Cover.jpg 116346504 new in stock 115415970 "My Mental State has a Midwest Shape" by Nicholas Grooms A poetic memoir set in the backdrop of a small, melting pot city in Southwest Kansas. Nicholas Grooms grew up in a community that thrives on farming, meat processing, stormy weather and too many good Mexican food restaurants to count. While growing up in a landlocked state in the middle of the map, Grooms chased his dreams of performing in hardcore/metal bands, as an independent hip-hop artist and inevitably found his home as a heralded poet, slam poet and author. With publishing credits in periodicals such as Ionosphere, Midsummer Dreamhouse, Villain Era Lit, Pictura Journal, Suburban Witchcraft and countless others, Grooms' work navigates the waters of growing up and experiencing childhood traumas such as death, infidelity, weight gain, exclusion, inconsistent living situations and having a best friend fighting Leukemia. The book navigates the see-saw battle between "homesick and sick of home" in a back forth tilt between wanting to be where you feel the most comfortable then yearning to leave the moment you are there and stuck in your position. Winner of the 2024 Elban R. Magana book prize and heralded by the Yonkers Observer as: "delicate, truthful, heart wrenching, thoughtful and sometimes flat out mean in its honesty from a writer who seemingly thrives while writing about the life he has lived in his boldly proclaimed “Two States”...." proving that even when you're not in Kansas anymore, you never truly leave. 14.00 USD https://mostcrucial.bigcartel.com/product/my-mental-state-has-a-midwest-shape-by-nicholas-grooms https://assets.bigcartel.com/product_images/411168597/GroomsCover.jpg 115415970 new in stock